Always believe in this ... .. ...

Once agn, i started my attachment at ROSETTE. Permenment Morning Shift. Thou i know uh, i would be shag, but fucks care! The feeling is like so SHOIK loh, nv work with those LAME bunch of BASTARD! Cheers*!
Was doing StaffMeal tdae, and all along, peoples keeps on telling me that " Aiyah, rosette de staffmeal HENG XIANG DA BIAN, i CHI MIAN BAO is more tastier den i eat the meal! " Then i was like, thinking to myself, is it really that bad? How great would it be if i am ABLE to chnge the thinking and trend of ROSETTE! And came SuperWonderChef! hahs! no lahs kidding.. I told ChefJowy about my thinking, and he said " eh fuck lahs! we are chefs, the biggest in the hotel or resturant, we MASA aper, they makan! no point doing it good de! " thats whut i get from him.. Well, i always believe in this, if we treat others well, they would do it vice versa! Thats how peoples in the industry gain respect, don't they? Then, i decided to do a "FINE-DINING" plating, and true enuff, the plating was WELL DONE! i was like so proud of myself eh! And not only that, the biggest compliment is from the Resturant Trainer, he said " Well, to whoever that does the staffmeal tdae, thanks lots. The food is nice so is the plating, i couldnt help myself but to take a second serving. Thanks Chefs" Wa, the moment i heard this, i SHOIK liao, hao bu hao! You see, thats how people gain respect, rights? Eh! Waiting for whut? Claps for me lahs! hahs! Am awaiting for Wednesday de staffmeal. Am gonna do all i can again! I Justin, wanna change the trend of ROSETTE! And i SWEAR! Smiles! Winks*
Went to EngWah cineplax to catch a movie "AGAIN" tdae! We watched TheKingdom! Well, its abit kinda dry, but when the LIQUID part came, WaPiang eh, damn shoik wan sia! Its about some fighting between some AngMohs and some Arabic Islam peoples. Its about the bad doing of some islamic people. Hmmm, i would rate it 2star over a total of 5star! Good try, can be improved! hahs! Wa! Act till i machiam is some 5star DIRECTOR hor? hahs! Hmmm, since the day EventCatering ends, i had been feeling great! Winks*

i wish i could hold you tightly and never let you go.....

EventCatering, Its over..

DaysPassed,and finally, the LAST day of my EventCatering is over.. Total pax for my EventCatering is 330 pax. Which is a very small amount.. But well, better than nothing mahs, hor? hahs! The feeling is like, PHEW, its OVER!! Machiam, UNLOAD a 100kg of rice sack off your shoulder.. I feel so light now, as light as the lightest thingy on earth. Thru this EC, i seen loads of peoples.. i had seen, whu is my real friend, and whu are not. And vice versa, loads had too seen my true colors.. i guess its a good test or rather, a true friend testing EVENT. But whatever it is, its just over.... EVENTCATERING, ITS OVERR!!
Hmm, went KTV to sing with chefs. We drank and drank.. Am kinda high thou, but i stil cn take it, cause its just beer je! hahas! Reached home ard 5am i guess, gonna pop out of house alr, gonna catch a movie with EEFA!! hahs! CHEERS! She came and support me ytd eh! So sweet of her rtyes? Loves her lahs! hahs!
Well, i realise i cnt work with those bunch of chefs animore, thats y i chose to TAO BI. i REQUESTED permanment MorningShift from the DIRECTOR, ChefHorst. He agreed to my request and put me permanment MorningShift in Rosette Resturant. Since i had DONKEY hours in the noon, i guess i better get myself some WORK to do! And earn some extra CASH! i need MONEY BADLY!! hahs! Perhaps am returning back to SPORTSLINK to work. i MISS sportslink! Wink*
I have not been happy, or rather, smiling real for 1month cause i simply not feeling great. And here, this EVENT is over, i guess, my period of EMO guy is over! LALALALA!
Wink* And to all that had made an effort to come and support me for my EVENT, i wont forget u guys, u guys would be DEEP down inside my heart!
Lastly, THANKS BIG TIME to those whu had been supporting me and hearing me talk abt my XinShi, GuangMing,Cheryln,Gladyis, Thanks you all! XieXie Ni Meng!

Efa, What will hpns if i have a Crush on you? hahs!
ItsOver...ItsOver...ItsOver...ItsOver...ItsOver...ItsOver...ItsOver...

Thanks you guys!

On thursday, GuangMing,Cheryln,WeeChuan,ChowEE,Cassandra,YaPing,Elieen, and two othas whom i dunno the name came and support me for my Event Catering. You know, the feeling is just like so TOUCH uh.. Am really touched. Thanks you guys so much! Muuuuacccks for you all.. The hug from CHERYLN really touches me! Thanks Cheryln! hahs!
After i DOCKED off, we went GEYLANG to do some stuffs. Buy myself 1CARTON of MARLBORO. Woooo. And took Bus back home. Was suddenly feeling moody due to those bad stuffs of my EventCatering(idunwishtosayle) and i keep quiet, real quiet. Its em who cheered mi up and get me smiling again! Thanks to u guys! You know, i wonder, how my life would be if you all are not there.. i wonder....
On friday, Nadya's group came.. Inculding Daniel and Haziqah. Thou am shock tt haziqah came.. but well, there ntg to think about. And am doing marketing tt day, so i could spend more time with them. Make drinks for them and my drinks refers to acholo! They drank! Somemore open REDWINE. POWER! hahs! Thanks Nadya for supporting me! Loves u lahs! hahs!

She changed, to the type which i destest. She is no longer in my heart. The girl named Haziqah whom i always regarded as Lady-Like and whom i LOVED deeply for months is dead. The period of me missing her is gone. Prooooofs! Bye to my MultiRacial Relationship and Bye to my Mixed bloodded future childen!

Stephanie is feeling down, i dun knw why.
Am worried for her, cause i love her....

Failed? i admit, i failed..

3days had passed since the ball of my EC start rolling.. Things are cocking up more and more each single day. i suddenly have this kinda feeling, fuck care. i knw it would be veri iresponisble of me to fuck care, bt when i cared, they are unhappy with me. What the fuck? Fuck! i start to wonder, whether had i do a good job as an Executive chef? and the answer is, no i did nt. i failed badly as an executive chef.. am so ashame of myself. Guest chef came coming in tdae, tellin me loads of thingy, and i remember this sentence very clearly from him, which is, this is the worst EC dinner i eva ate. That really pierce thru my heart.. am feeling damn down uh. Fuck! and i suddenly askd myself this question, had i failed.. and my answer to myself is, yes, i admit i had failed the EC. in terms of leading them and in term of food condition, i FAILD badly. But fred not, i would treat this as an experience... None of this would hpn agn! i SWEAR! and FUCK!. How i wish this WEEK would just ENDS like that. Am dead beat. i cnt take it. But i still got to endure, WHY? coz am the executive. if nt, tongues would start wagging behind me.. FUCK LAHS!

TeAmo, Stephanie..

Cheekys Munkeeys+LightHouse Pub

Was kinda bored over saturday night.. so decided to when CLUBBING. Rang up DannyTan and Vannessa and we headed down to MuhdSutan, we planned to enter cheekys bt, its a MALAY day! so we decided to went over to Clarke Quay, nearly went in TheArena, bt i guess its gonna be a "Boring" place, so i decided to go over Boat Quay rather, to have a drink in PUB. Hopped in lighthouse and we are being welcomed by this beautiful waitress, Ena. She drank with us, played cards with us and we chatted. Exchnged numbers and went for a smoke, and we left. And we hopped in CHEEKYS. The crowd is damnn........ LOTSS! and we danced til the end of night.. i took 1N nightrider home, and true enough i over slpt! and i end up at KEBU BAHRU, so WALKED home to ANGMOKIO! Thou my LEGS are like jelly after all the hours of DANCING! and i chatted wit ENA thou the night and slpt ard, 7.30am? hahs! Woken up at 4pm by SKY, met him at AngMoKio stn and thru enuff, i GOT a SHOCK of my life.. Haziqah is there! Shes there. But i suddenly have this kinda feeling, she is a stranger to me.. so didnt talked to her at all. And we left.. Haziqah, thou i stil habour thoughts of you.. But i feels that i love you no more, its Stephanie Lee that i love...

LeePuiXuanStephanie, Wo De Xin Hao Ruan.. Thats when i love you.

-如果你也听说-

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如果你也听说有没有想过我想普通交朋友还是你依然会心疼我
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如果你也听说会不会相信我对流言会附和还是你知道我还是我
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i wish i could say, i love you, to you again..

I had come to a final decision..

After long hours of thinking.. and after hard time of struggling.. i finally came to a decision. and i really mean a HARD decision.
Am going to re-shuffle the entire post and position that i had came up with. Cause i realise, theres not just this few of jackass i had, but rather, 2 Blackhorse and run up and proves to me that they are not jus made of empty brains and chicken mouth, but rather, a initiatives decicives brain and a pair of FAST hands! how on earth cn i overlook this 2 ediert over that self centered guy? am going to change it. am breaking the news to em tmr.. i think, its better for me to reward those whu had been doing well over those whu had been fuking ard with me. i guess, its only the fair thing i does, don't you guys agree?
His heart is not there.. totally not there. what has he done as a sous chef? helping hisham all the way? guing to Asian IS be a trainer wannabe? sorry, i dun loves to "SA KA" ppl like how u does. You called youself a sous chef but yet u does nth a sous chef shld b doing. Wont you be ashame of yourself? if i were you, i would dig a bloody hole and hide my face inside, "Mei Nian Jian Ren".
Rather, the two jackass whu came back from GoodWood Park hotel, had been proving to me that they are capable! I am touched by what they had does..
Am sure u guys also wants to have a great EventCatering experience..
So i believe, my decision is fixed and it benefits all...
Peace..

Loving you was the greatest thing on earth..

Burned ass

My fault? though i knew its nt mine, bt i apologise. if i were in their shoes uh, i would definately flare up like nobody's business and my temper would lead me to a more unpleaseant sight. and thats the reason why i undastnd how they feel and how they felt. but somehow, some bloody jackass would loves nt to listen to whut i told em, instead, go to the higher aurthority. and, a ugly secene appear soon after i got my ASS BURNED by the higher aurthority. perhpaps its really my fault uh, i didnt CHECK it throughly and that leads to a stupid mistake on the tickets. i seriously owe em a sincere apology and i guess i would b doing that before the start of the Eventt ease anything unpleaseant happens.. and i pray...
Have a meal with ChefSam and Studen-field-trainer Latiff. the food is not that bad.. but it sure cn be improved.. but i doubt mine would be any better, PROVIDED they gives me support and cooperate with me thru the end of EventCatering. My classmates whom is serving attachment at ROSETTE says that, thats the problem with me, i always "sun zhe ta men zhou" am i wrong? hmm.. whut would happen if am like the previous executive chef, whu hacks the DPB peeps and demand whut they wants? i always believe in teamwork. if i resepct em, i would wants em to respect me. and so they would also be more willingly to do their thingy to make a PERFECT whole COURSE dinner for the guest, and not forgetting, this EventCatering is not only done by DCS, its also the DPB's EventCatering mahs! Somehow, i feels that they really tried their best to rush alr.. i shall sincerly SALUTE them! they do have a GREAT teamwork! CHEERS for em!
Right now, my ass is pipping hot.. i shall see whut on earth would hpns on the EXACT day of eventcatering.. Confused?Blured?Cockup? Wait and the answer would FLOAT out!


Would you be there on my EventCatering?... i still remember whut you told me...

Mist of Numbness

Its the first time that i totally HECK about my EC. Cool, the feeling is as though u had let go of a heavy backpack off your bloody shoulder. But some how i still feel uncomfortable letting the whole group go downs the drain, i had seen it myself, the group needs me to guide em along. They look RATHER lost in the process of R&D. Perhaps this would be a lesson to em that don't ever take me for granted.. Things go quite smoothly thou. i assume by this TUESDAY, things would settle down. i pray...

Thoughts of you seems to be flashing in and out of my mind. Its going to be the 14th of the month agn. I wish i could hold your hand again, bt i knew i would never be able to does that ever again. Thur out the 1yr6mths that i spent with you, i had let u down times and again. And i undastnd that u would nv give me a 2nd Chance eva. The moment i heard of u that you're (bi-sexual) do u knw that i cnt even believe it. Haziqah, i realli hope that you wont due to a failed relationship and cause you to cross over to the route that you're taking now. Thou, after the breakup, i had many countless flings, the feeling that i had with you would never be felt again. Am in the mist of numbness. Am still living in the past August1405 - Feb1407.

Will you be back?

ExecutiveChef? i rather not.

ExecutiveChef huh? oh man, please uh, i rather not. U see, whats the point of you being so high up there where by none respect you and worst still none wanna cooperate with you? Some says i have attitutes probs, cool. i commandered them around, they complain i attitute probs, and when i dont, some says i dont get evryone involves. what the heck does they want from me? producing a best MENU is something that testes a CHEF's SKILLS. and here, i DARE to say out that those thugs doesnt even have ANY skills to be a werld top famous well known CHEF. Simple Dishes is wad i get from them? u knw, even MY FATHER can cook better than em uh! come on, ask yourself this qns, when ure doing marination, DO U MEASURE HOW MUCH QUANITY of ingrient you use? as in, 500ml water, 20ml oystersauce, 10mllightsoya sauce? isnt its DUMB? complain behind my back is what they're good at? huh? 1st of all, do they ever respect me as a EXECUTIVECHEF? this is the 3rd time we are changing OUR menu! i wonder cn we really make it on time.. Event starts on 19nov and now? its just 1 blooddy week left for us. POSTER not yet done, tickets not yet done, menu nt yet fixed. am getting RESTLESS. my hopes and goal of hitting 550pax is FADING. i guess am washing off my hands on this stuffs, if nt, my stress level will hit up to the max and i might go BONKERS! Whats the use of em using they bloody chicken backside mouth, yak and yak and yak non-stop bt nth comes out from their empty idoitic brains? they are just PLAIN STUPIDS! but stil, life got to go on! Slacked wit my besta buddies ytd night at some ROMANTIC "KOPITIAM" and guess all of us are really stressed up with our daily stuffs, i puffs my cigs and drank my cups of beer. Been so long didnt felt so relaxed alr. Thanks to em agn for accompanying me! CHEERS*

-am stil holding on to the thought that u would return, Girl-