life anew

Last day,
the Last Ride.

everything, from drawer to boot,
had been cleared.

4yrs of own transport, in a couple hours time,its going to be gone.
POOOF!

i believe the world wont stop revolving
due to this, life have to move on.

am prepared to start everything frm scratch again.

life would be a total change .

am also awaiting whts going to hpns,
the brothers that had spent with me during the 1yr
i believe they would be gone,
or rather, proof me wrong.

Life would be anew from now on.

Folks, a new me would be formed.

What should i do?

Time -
Hour hand, Minute Hand, Seconds Hand,

As long as they ticks,
As long as they moves,
My life are SCREWD.

REALLY no deal for ESi now, HOW?
Wht should i do??

FUCK u, $2400 for a CAR??
Wht car? those tt cn be bought at ToyRus ?
Go pray to ur ancestor ! dun waste my time NEGO with you..

Fuck u Indian, on the ACCOUNT of ur pitful son,
thats y i said to arange a viewing,
YOU dun show me ur those FUCK attitude...
YOU are the FUCK buyer,
YOU should see my attitude,
NOT ME!
JUST get lost!

ABC company just asked for my expected.
i replied, bt i wonders abt the respond.
EVEN if they acept my expected,
i really QUESTIONMARK abt, if am able to be UP THERE!
GOD BLESS

EFG is offering a very good opportunity,
but none is willingly to help,
OR MAYBE, unable to..
they expects too much, maybe i really cnt do that..
Mind you, its fucking FINE DINING..
Not just any 3min KIMCHI noodles..

Why shld i says so much,
Why shld i worry so much,
Why shld i think so much,
Why shld i care so much,
Why shld i CARE THINK WORRY SAYS so much for WHAT SHOULD I DO???
FUCK LAHS!
i really , really really,
should leave this world soon....

Just let me
D I E


Regards
Rest in Peace

Fcuk u MALAY Bastard.

Having with loads of tattoo so what?

Eh, MELAYU, FUCK YOU UNDERSTAND..

PUKI MAK KAU LOBANG lah FUCK!

No so big, dun act so big. Talk like some MP gg for ELECTION.

FUCK U !

YOU seriously screwd my plan,
YOU nv aeroplane me,
YOU literally gave me the whole airport!

i swear upon ur FUCKING mother,
SHOULD I SEE YOU ON THE STREETS,
i really dunmind gg to jail..
cause at least i knw, u would b wheel chaired bound.

YOU this FUCKING
C H E E B Y E .. _l^l_


No mood for regards alr.
FUCK off you FOLKS!

F U C K Y O U lah!

C H E E B Y E lah!

21st

Its a childhood dream to be 21st..
Its also a NIGHTMARE dream to spend my 21st..

i hate my life.
i hate the world.
i hate myself.

i seriously felt like dying.
Perhaps, if i managed to stop breathing for a day, i would be very glad..
To stop my brain for even 2sec am more than happy..

i wish to die.


Others are so good, mine, its just bullshit..

Something to Nothing

Date is nearing me,
no deal yet.. no cash yet, no jobs yet.
i really wonder how to survive...

i really felt indebted to ....
really really, no joke..
Mayb thats the reason fr me being and reacting in this manner...
Feeling so lost, feeling so woman...

Metup with Ducati and iPhone tgt with ...
Ducati gt a new Ducati bike.
Jealous? of cos..
His life is so good.. compared to mine ...

i really cnt imagine whts my future like...
i really cnt imagine the day when EG5 is gone..
i really cnt imagine taking bus/train ever again...

BUT i gt to....

Till date, no job, sent many resume, went many interview...
ITS NOT THE PROFESSION youre in, u gt to acept this...
its going to be hard on you...

Phantom, HondaSP, EG5 to NOTHING..

KILL ME.

GuestBOOK.

it took me 3hrs to get the fking TAGBOARD done..
so anyone of you walk pass here, REMEMBER to sign off.
OH PLEASE, no anonymous pls.. just leave ur name, will it kills??

Have a great day!

Regards.

FML

Birth of a Failure

a couple of days later, it would be my 21st..
the day where ppl would mostly receive super good gifts,
the day where parents gave daughter a KEY necklace.

For me, i pushed everything away...
there is really nothing more to celebrate.
Meaningless .. its a complete waste of energy, perhaps even time.

a year ago, during this timing, am very down,
a year later, NOW, stil the same..

Too many stuffs flowing in mind, i duno if i cn take it...
shld there be a day where i cnt take it any longer, i will let u knw..
Currently surviving on sleeping pills EVERYNIGHT..
on INSOMNIA for 2mths..
God knws....

Happy Birthday Failure!

Goodnight folks, wish me , never to wake up.

Regards...

Welcome back, Hellos YEAR 2011

YO, everyone here,
am back , dunno fr hw long...
but just to check, IS ANYONE HERE??

Regards

FLEW!!

Blown off!
OFF we go..

HUH? Blogger?!

Oh my F U C K I N G god..

What the F U C K is BLOGGER doing?

Trying to UPGRADE their system?

If yes, am so sorry, YOU HAVE F A I L E D

Dont make me MOVE HOUSE!

You this F U C K E R!

Human Beings..

For the very 1st time, i wondered...
Why is there such a thing calld HUMAN on earth...

SHENG LAO BING SHI / Birth Old Sick Death
is it really something that a HUMAN must go through?

Why is life so complicated?
Is it true that each and every person's LIFE is all pre-arranged?
if yes, why they arranged it this way?

5days ago, she was sick..
5days ltr, she was dead....

HOW TO ACCEPT?

No illness, nothing!
just plain giddy, headache and vomit...
and off she goes,
Sleeps inside the wood made coffin,
Enters the balls of fire....
till ASH...

At the age of 36.
i cnt accept...

You will forever be alive in my mind, in my soul, in my HEART.

Wu Yi / 5th Aunt :
Rest in peace



Life is all but a bundle of shit!

Label me this way

Money.. Most cause of crime is due to monetary issues..
Why? why is money that impt, to the extend of losing one's mind over it?

Here's a story to share :

There use to be a guy named Sebastian, who is commonly known as Sebas.
He comes from a very poor family background with both parents lowly educated..
From young... he witnessed all FIGHTS that is going on in the family.
Be it BIG or SMALL fights, from shouting at each other till the extend of throwing chairs,
breaking of fridge doors, tearing down room doors to carrying CHOPPER chasing each other,
just like the childhood game, hide and seek.
There is a reason behind each single fights, but none of the reason is REASONABLE!!
All of em are just fighting over MONETARY issue..

Under the influence of his parents, from as young as primary 1, Sebas had been saving...
He knows the impt of money.... Money cn build a HAPPY family, Money cn do wonders!
Therefore, whatever the amount of pocket money he gets, he would save at least 90% of it..
the remaining 10% which is normaly 10cent
usually ends up on Public Phone to ring back home...
During the break time which is known as recess time, he would sit in one corner, drinking
white syrup water from a machine that looks like a water-cooler.
He wonder, "how nice would it be if he was the one sitting down, having a bowl of pipping hot noodle with some soy bean drink"
With almost EMPTY stomach, he went back to lesson after his break, and waits for the end of sch..
The happiest moment of primary sch days is to hear tt LAST bell Ring!
Together with normal kids, Sebas DASH out of classroom, run towards the gate and stretch out his head as high as he could,
just like a animal tt gt a long neck with black spot on it, and two antenna poking out from its head,
to find his parents, or anybody to fetch him.. But almost EVERYDAY, his parents got to disappoint him..
There, he stood under a huge tree taking shelter and observe the area...
Cars by cars,almost caused a traffic conjunction outside the gate, were the parents of his schoolmates...
All of em are grinning and waving proudly goodbye to each others, and while they walk, they shares with their
parents wht is happening in school...
Other than cars, Sebas also saw, some of their schoolmates being KIDNAP!
They are being fetched by someone who is DARK and BLACK, bt a proper word to describe it is TANNED!
For once, Sebas thought that, thats KIDNAP, but he wonders,
"Shouldnt be, i heard em saying SIR, i help you carry your school bag."
Those BLACK aunties, who dont look like their parents, are carrying HUGE mushroom like thing over their head,
while holding his classmates across the road...
Sebas would then find some fallen twits, and carry it in his hand, and playing along the way back home........

Years passed, thats how Sebas goes thru his childhood..
no family days, no family outing... NOTHING!

Just when Sebas turns 15, their parents separated..
Needless to say, due to MONETARY issues.
Sebas was then being MISUSED by his dad. His dad, would want him to cough out a story to get
MONEY from his Mum. and whenever Sebas refuses, his dad would threaten to commit suicide, or whack him up!
But he knows, thats not the way, so the only way to save it, was by being a 2headed snake..
Lying to his Dad that he had alr told his mum, and lying to his Mum tt dad was not saying anything..
But end up, Sebas's mum had to give MONEY to his dad for no REASON!!
"WHY? MONEY MONEY MONEY? FUCK OFF WITH THAT! I HAD FUKING ENOUGH OF IT." Sebas said...

Years passes, hardships goes on everyday, and soon it looks just like a normal routine..
Through all those years of TRAINING Sebas got from his parents, he become very money sensitive.
He wants EVERYTHING on earth! He wants to MAKE himself PROUD.
He wants EVERYONE TO BE ENVY OF HIM!!!!!!
Bulleting down goals and goals that he wants to achieve..
Be it non realistic or FUCKING non realistic, he stil wants it DONE!

At the age of 18, he enrold himself in a Motorcycle course.
The whole process drained him more than SGD$1400.
And knowing he cnt afford a bike at that age, and despite all advice not to get a Motorcycle,
he goes against destiny and get himself a MOTORCYCLE!

The GAME finally BEGUN!

All the years of saving.... Dollar by dollars, cents by cents, flew off!
Soon Sebas was left penniless. He REFUSE to believe his destiny, he wants to FIGHT it on!
Borrowed money from friends, from almost EVERYBODY he knew...
But there is something he also knows,
the BORROWING and RETURNING cycle NEVER ENDS!
He wants to put a STOP to everything! to FUCKING FUCKING EVERYTHING!
He was left with no choice, no CHOICE!
its a DEAD road ahead of him....
He got no choice.

One fine sunny afternoon, without having any penny fr lunch,
He committed a crime.
Thinking that could earns his SGD$200++, he risked his life for it.

Two person came, they were dressed in a very funny way, with blue pants, and blue top,
whts more, sliver buttons.
He was being arrested by them, being handcuffed, he was thrown inside a WRX and being driven to somewhr.
They did not release his handcuffs.
After seizing all his belongings, he was told to strip down only to BASIC clothing, with no SHOES!
Sebas was being thrown inside a room
3 walls, 1 mini gate and 1 toilet hole.
He sits there, and recalls...
"If only,
i were NOT so love towards money, i wouldnt be here.
i heed others advice, i wouldnt be penniless..."
There is so many If only....
"WHY MUST A PERSON WAIT TILL SOMETHING HAPPENS THEN THEY REGRET?" Sebas thought.

He was being charged in court. He was allowed to be bailed out..
He spent the next 2hour calling his CLOSED friends to bail him out...
But NONE came to his rescue..
For a moment he thought.. "There is no true friends in the world.. the only true friends are your parents"
He booast up his courage, ringd his mum, to his surprise, its 3am in the NIGHT and his MUM is still awake..
SHE WAS WAITING FOR SEBAS TO RETURN HER CALL..
Sebas then shed tears sliently, knowning he had hurt his mum REAL DEEP this time..
Everything happens just like a dream..

Days after Sebas had been bailed out, he realise, EVERYONE MOCKS AND SCOLDS him for his mistake..
he had known his mistake...
"WHY CNT PPL JUST ACCEPT ME? WHY MUST THEY STILL RUB IN MY WOUNDS?"
"WHY MUST THEY STILL SEES ME DIFERNTLY?"
"AM ALR FEELING VERY DOWN, WHY WHY WHY"
He thought to himself..

Sebas had known his mistake.. and is too ashame to face anybody else..
he had let his MUM down the most.. and too, his loved, girlfriend.
He just wants to starts life afresh, anew, give him a second life.
He decided, rather den his friends avoids him, he would want to take the 1st step, to avoid them.
" AM NOT WORTHY TO BE YOUR FRIEND. AM A LAW BREAKER. I DONT WANT TO LAND YOU ALL IN TROUBLE. "

Sebas MESSAGE to everyone.

THE END.

MONEY IS THE CAUSE OF A CRIME, MONEY IS THE CAUSE OF A BROKEN FAMILY.
I HATE MONEY, TO HELL WITH THAT.........

- FUCK OFF -

OVERHEARD

Overheard

is for someone to watch-while-think MOVIE!

so those that gt dead brain cell, would find it CRAP!
those who gt JUICE there, would find it WELL FILMED!

HARRY POTTER

Harry Potter and half blood prince

IS TOTAL CRAP!

L I S T E N

Listen,
To the song here in my heart
A melody I've start
But can't complete

Listen, to the sound from deep within
It's only beginning
To find release

Oh,
the time has come
for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside and turned
Into your own
all cause you won't
Listen....

[Chorus]
Listen,
I am alone at a crossroads
I'm not at home, in my own home
And I tried and tried
To say whats on my mind
You should have known
Oh,
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what, you made of me
I followed the voice
you gave to me
But now I gotta find, my own..

You should have listened
There is someone here inside
Someone I'd thought had died
So long ago

Oh I'm screaming out, for my dreams to be heard
They will not be pushed aside or worse
Into your own
All cause you won't
Listen...

[Chorus]

I don't know where I belong
But I'll be moving on
If you don't....
If you won't....

LISTEN!!!...
To the song here in my heart
A melody I've start
But I will complete

Oh,
Now I'm done believing you
You don't know what I'm feeling
I'm more than what, you made of me
I followed the voice, you think you gave to me
But now I gotta find, my own..
my ownn...

L I S T E N

The Journey with HER

i had seen it coming...
but guess, i had my max..
Yuppsss.

No matter wht i do fr you, ure just not happy w it...
bought flowers for you, in the end, throw it at my house?
Wait fr it to rot?
den i HELP u DUMB it? wht a DUMB me, DUMB my own efforts!!
Nothing i do will ever please you...
Nothing i do will ever makes u smiles.

Perhaps the loving relationship i had w you, were dumb in the sea,
LONG TIME AGO..
And i just refuse to believe it...
giving me time again and again.. to contradict myself, its was me at fault..
but.. it had reach my climax...

Maybe am just not good enough fr you..
AND
Youre just too good for me...

S O R R Y

Justin .. ... .. ...

Dont blame me..... .. ...

Brand New SHOP!

Guys, i had opened a blog shop selling nice, cheap dresses and tops for LADIES! Dont worry, i ASSURE you tt u would b SATISFIED!
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Do support me yea?

Justin

Sudden Shoot-UP

Been so long since i lastd blogged. i guess, gt 2mth!
Anw, am planning and thinking whether i shld shift my blog over to WordPress.
Wordpress seeems so promising!

Done with Pan Pacific Singapore, am no longer there alr. in short, i had graduated from
Pan Pacific Singapore. and WITHIN 1week, my status just shoot up like that, as currently, am a Teacher at Andrew&Grace Girls Home Hostel teaching them Basic Culinary, every Monday and Friday, if you guys interested, JOIN me man! HAHAS! Although those girls frequent bicker among each other, but they are interested. This really motivate me and urge me to do more research and to upgrade myself, those girls are plain WONDERFUL. CHEERS for you guys!
On Tue, Wed & Thurs, am a SFT in SHATEC, meaning, Student Field Trainer. When my chef is busy with lesson, am suppose to supervise them. Nevertheless, i did not carry myself too high up, as in, i would bring myself down to their level, doing what they are doing. What i hope is that, am able to pass down wht i had learn from Pan Pacific Singapore to them, so as to make themselves a level higher than wht thy used to be. Hopefully everything will go smoothly.

Am enlisted! but not in the Commando Unit, a little disapointment though, but its okay, no big deal! hahas. am gg in MONO intake on Sept 11 2009 to 2nd Infrantry. So guys, see me fat now, its okays, bt 2weeks ltr, a brand new JUSTIN will appear! HAHAHAHS!

Been working Despatch for KFC fr almost a month, finally, i had SACKD my boss ( oppsite ). Misunderstanding often occurs during work, and therefore i flare up, as its Moneytary issue, whts more, am broke! tts y am WORKING! DUH! i admits, the way i handle the issue is totally wrong and unacceptable, but wht had hpns had alr hpns, no point crying over spilled milk.
Left House dont hit, hit Right House( convert into chinese ). am sure i will secure a job within 1 week! i have fate in myself!

I will post up pics of the recent updates! Keep tune in here yea!
CHEERS*


Presentation is the beauty of a dish

BABY :D

the day when you are leaving is drawing near.
do buy me lots of stuffs okay?
i will certainly miss you alot.
hopefully i will do fine when you are not around.
i miss you dearly